sadness...

Neither me know how I feel inside now.
I feel like if I was slowly dying.
Everything I can ask myslef is “ why I’m always feel bad for someone ? “ why I keep belive that the happiness could be made by people ?
I feel like it was only a beautiful dream.
I know myself and I know the voice that is inside my mind, and it is telling me that never will happen what I want, what i dreamed, what I hoped.
I have so many doubts now.. I just want to cry, like a baby.
I feel disappointed. You say that you ‘ll never make me suffer or cry, but you’re already doing it. Seem the vers of a song.. a sad song that is in my mind. Why are doing this to me..? Why, if you knew the situation, why ,then, haven’t you ever talked with me about it before? So I’d never think that this beautiful dream could became true. What is happening to me? I’m dying from the inside.
I sweared to myslef that i’d never feel in this way for anyone else anymore.
Why I’m suffering so much now tho?
Why I feel so stupid , so naive? Is only my sensation or is the truth?
It’s like a dream that has become suddenly a nightmare.
What I have to do?
I’m not sure of anything.
I love with all myself someone I can’t stay with ? please tell me that is’ only a nightmare. why I 'm not able to belive? why seem to me just words and nothing else..?
I wanted to say so many things..but now I ‘ve forgotten everything .
I’ve a terribile fear. Like if I already know which will be the end of everything. Why?
I don’t want to feel in this way.
I want to be happy like before, beliving in something.
I just want to live.